I Am Not Sure
My first despondent tears in 2020
Not sure for what
I am afraid
To lose
Again
Again
Again
...
No
Please
No
...
If you know, I never be that mad at you before
So I tried to not caring at how you feel or what my silence does to you
But I know that somewhere inside, I’m perfectly aware of what you are feeling
I know what I did was wrong
It was like a demon erupted in me and told me to revenge by leaving
Still, I am not sure of what happened that day
Maybe too many good things left me before
So I'd rather leave than being hurt, than being the one who gets left
Still, I am not sure
I've got to stop this and I need your help
...
Thanks for calling me tonight
I am happy to hear from you again
I believe it's easier for you to let me go
But thank you for not doing so
I am sorry
for what I did
for disappointing you
and
for having nothing to say to you tonight
...
Always know you mean a lot to me
I hurt me more when I hurt you
Senin, 13 April
I can't remember when was the last time I cried this way. I guess 6 or 7 months ago.
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